He has and always will be my bestriend, that is if we talk again.
I wanted you to come back for me. I wanted you to come chasing after me like they do in those stupid movies. Where the guy, even though hes not sure why, admits hes wrong.
I wanted you to tell me that I was worth it and it didn't matter. You'd make time for me.
But you didn't. Theres not one bone and your body that cares, and that terrifies me. I don't know how you can tell someone everything. be so close. you know? save them from suicide. and then when theyre mad at you, brush it off.
Its been three weeks since I've said a word to you. am i crazy? someone please tell me. im going insane. I want to text you, but i deleted your number out of anger. I guess its a good thing, you know? I always come crawling back. No matter how bad it hurts, I wont be doing it again. You have to make a move. Youve had so many chances. You know how much free time we've had? a hell of a lot. I see you daily. and its nothing. like blank faces. You don't care, but I do. I care so much.
You couldve talked to me today. But instead, you talked to her about her "eating disorder" across the entire class. Oh yeah, hers is important. I make myself throw up daily. but youre oblivious to that. Maybe if I get thin and hot, you'll notice me again. and come back. Please, come back. I can't stand you not being here. I want you back so bad. Please. Im begging, make a move. you know im mad. "H" talked to you. She told you I was in the hopsital. why didnt that phase you?! why didnt you care. I texted you weeks while you were in that emergency room. I dont get it. Please come back, please say its all a dream. I feel way too empty without you here.